destination walk

 My mom calls and leaves this message when I don't answer.

"Hi honey. I guess you're out walking. Or maybe you're watching a movie. Or playing Canasta.  Or having dinner.  Call me when you can."

So sad.

That short message pretty much sums up my life. It used to be... well, you can fill in your own blanks with many more interesting pre-COVID activities. But for now, it's pretty much the ones my mom listed. 

Today I go on a destination walk— so much better than a walk to nowhere.

I haven't been to midtown in ages and someone told me about a pop-up store called Misi Pasta. That's my destination.

I pass by the Rockefeller Christmas tree. Its beauty is marred by the two gun-toting policemen guarding it.

But elsewhere in midtown the holiday spirit is strong.

A five-mile walk for a $7 freshly-made spaghettii package is certainly worth it.

Now I can eat it guilt-free.

Deliziosa!

a christmas wish

Since 2008, I have spent every Christmas day doing the same exact thing.

I invite over a group of friends, serve junk food, and watch multiple movies that most don't yet have access to.

It's become a tradition of sorts for my Jewish friends and me. And it's something I always look forward to.

In past years, the groups have ranged in size. Sometimes it's a smallish group.

And sometimes it's large enough that there isn't even enough seating.

Sometimes people bring significant others, who turn out to be not all that significant

Spouses are welcome.

Mothers too.

And even my son occasionally joins the group, but just to say hello.

Sometimes the movies have been slow, and my friends have tired.

I always make popcorn, buy some candy and provide soft drinks.

Sometimes I'll even bake something. Cookies one year, and a jam-filled brie en croute another.

Once I showed three movies in one day, with different people coming in and out.

But mostly it's been two movies.

Lots of friends.

Tons of food.

And then pizza for dinner.

But this year is different.

A zoom call.  Canasta with friends. Some movies by myself. And a solo dinner. 

But that's okay. It's the year of COVID after all.

So my wish for this year is for everyone to continue to do what we've been doing since March.

Wear a mask. Avoid crowds. Wash hands often. And appreciate all that you do have.

There have been many incredibly Christmases past. And I am hopeful for the ones to come.

But now is not the time to be complacent.

I need only to look at this Christmas photo from a couple of years ago to know what this virus can do.

Happy holidays. And to you to Stewart; we miss you.

major snow in NYC?

I love a good winter snowstorm.

Last year we had none. It was a sad winter weather-wise.

So I was all excited when for days, the news has been all about the weather when Coronavirus cases and the vaccine were not being discussed.

Big nor'easter is on the way.

The biggest we've seen in years.

Long lines at grocery stores.

Plows all set.

8-12 inches expected in New York City.

It begins Wednesday night.

But it looks more like light, steady flurries. 

I wake up on Thursday, and run to my window, like a kid on Christmas morning.

Yes, it's the biggest snowfall we've had in 1001 days, according to the news.

But it's nothing like the ones I remember from my childhood. 

Or even years ago in NYC, when some streets were totally impassable, schools were closed for days, and parked cars looked like little bunny ski slopes.

Out one window, I see the pristine snow. This is the window that still has the shelter up for the construction going on underneath it. Pretty.

Then I look out the window next to it. Not so pretty.

Missing: the winter wonderland I'd hoped for.

So today I walk to the park. The pristine snow is already gone.

But it's worth the walk. 

Binghampton NY got 40 inches. 

Now that is a nor'easter. 

But it's still early in the season. I hope the next one that comes is a real one.

book club replacement

I was in a book club for many years. probably over ten. But when I started working at Saks on Fridays, I quit, as our book club met on Fridays.

I felt bad leaving as I really liked all the women in the book club. But once I left Saks and could rejoin, I chose not to. I didn't like most of the books we read (the group was more literate than I like to be) and, the discussion of the book became secondary to a general monthly catch-up.

So my friend M and I formed our own little book club. Just the two of us. It's perfect. We chose the books together. We discuss them in real-time. Nothing ever needs to be scheduled or coordinated. And we "meet" on the phone, so there is never the issue of what to serve.  

But lately, we haven't been able to find books we are excited to discuss. And, the type of books we want to read keeps narrowing.

Neither of us likes sci-fi, or books about the future, or any type of dystopian state.

Anything too depressing is out. So that rules out tons of books, including any about the holocaust. Terminal illnesses. Alcoholism.  Abject poverty.  Drug addiction. And abusive relationships, to name just a few.

We'd much rather read a book that is well-enough written but has a great plot, than an excellently written book with a so-so plot. Gone Girl is a  good example of a book that has both. There are few of these.

That same standard also applies to television-viewing, which our book club has recently morphed into. Breaking Bad, for me, is the gold standard.

We are both now watching the 164-episodic Turkish soap-opera on Netflix called Black Money Love. 

We are at episode 117, and discuss the show daily. Its many many flaws make it the perfect discussion piece. 

We imagine writing to the writers and asking:

• Hey, whatever happened to that computer guy who disappeared?
• I thought O needed an operation to save the use of his arm? Did the writers forget that?
• Why does everyone recover so quickly from multiple gunshot wounds, stabbings, car accidents, or organ transplants?
• Why did O fabricate such a stupid lie that will clearly be uncovered?
• What's up with the aunt who looks like a man?
• How do people in the show overcome their grief so quickly from the sudden deaths of those they love?
• How ugly was L's jacket, and why would he wear jeans to a wedding?
• Why are the poor people always eating?
• Why do the rich people never seem to be working at their real jobs?
• And please, can't you cut all the endless, flowery, never-ending dialogue about much in love all the lovers are?

And on and on.

I guess the point of this rambling post is that whether it's books, or movies, or TV series, it's always more fun and more interesting to share the experience with someone else. Especially now that the proverbial water cooler is missing.

pod-less in nyc

My good friend in Boston has her whole family (two adult sons, one daughter-in-law, one husband, and one dog named Gus) in her pod.

My sister in NY's pod includes her large and growing family (one husband, one mother-in-law, three sons, two daughters-in-law, one son's girlfriend, and four grandkids).

My mom has her Canasta partners, Ellie her cat, plus my sister's family in her small pod.

My sister in Massachusetts has her husband, her adult son, my mom, one cat named Serena, one dog named Roxy, and too many friends to count in her pod.

And then there's me.  I pretty much live in a pod of one.

But I am not lonely; I am bored.

I sometimes miss restaurants, theaters, and screenings, but I mostly miss just being able to say, "Hey, want to come over and.... (watch a movie, order in, or just hang out)."

I pretty much do the same thing every day.

• Watch at least one movie so I have seen the award-worthy ones in time to cast my BAFTA votes. It's more challenging than it was last year when by this time, I had already received almost 70 DVD's and gone to many private screenings. This year I've gone to no screenings and have only received a handful of DVD's. 

• Catch up with friends (most days).

• Read and watch the news (every day).

• Spend time on the computer (every day).

• Speak to my mom (every day).

• Watch at least two episodes of Black Money Love on Netflix (every day). It's a guilty pleasure, for sure. 164 episodes, in Turkish. I'm currently on episode 114 and still loving it, despite its many flaws.

• Read more of whatever book I've downloaded to my Kindle (every day).

• Play Canasta, either with friends or against the computer (every day).

• Buy food (most days).

• And walk 4-6 miles (4 or 5 times a week). 

        Yesterday was rainy and misty.

    While today was a perfect spring day — no coat required.

So yes. My life has become quite solitary. And boring.

But then I see the numbers.

In the one hour that Meet The Press was on air this morning, 8,580 new cases of COVID-19 were likely diagnosed.

Boredom and solitude are small sacrifices to make if it means staying virus-free — for (hopefully) just a little bit longer.

a happy home for amber

Once a week I check my lobby mailbox.

And the only reason I do it even that often is to remove the four magazines I subscribe to: EW, People, NY Magazine, and Consumer Reports.

I do all my bills online, and the same is true for any correspondence

I rarely write checks.

But I still receive a bit of actual mail.

Catalogs I never requested.

Alumni newsletters and magazines.

And flyers about things I don't care about.

I know that some mail and solicitations I get may be related to other interests I've shown or purchases I've made.

A new catalog, for instance, that sells similar items to another retailer I've used.

Or insurance companies looking to sell me a new plan. Or even protect the car I don't own.

Or a new restaurant opening in the area (though haven't seen many of those these days).

But recently I received something odd in the mail.

It's not in a generic envelope addressed to current resident.

Nope. 

It's addressed directly to me. 

Correct spelling and apartment number. Even used the extra 4-digits in the zip code.

It's a charity request for a most unusual cause.

Makes me wonder.

Of all the lists I do get on, how did I ever get on this one?

in the eyes of the beholder

Growing up, I had two sets of grandparents plus two bubbes. 

Everyone old back then seemed to have come from the old country. 

And all those people seemed to appear very very old.

It was almost as if the old country only created old-looking people.

I don't recall either of my bubbes speaking English. And the one I knew best (because she lived with my maternal grandparents) had to have been in this country for over 40 years, since my grandmother arrived here as a baby.

When I try to remember bubbe's actual name, I text my sister, the unofficial family historian, and ask what her name was. "Did she have one?" is the answer I get. Exactly. We never called her anything but bubbe. I just remember her sitting in a chair all day and looking very very old. My guess is that she was in her mid-70's.

How strange it is now that everyone then seemed ancient. But looking at photos, people then did look so much older than people of the same age do today.

Here's my beloved grandmother Sally, at age 52. 

And here's my mother and me at around the same age.

People today just age better.

And while I like to think I still look young (despite my half-head of gray hair), to anyone under 40 (maybe older), I probably look to them like my bubbe looked to me.

On Tuesday, I go to Duane Reade (owned by Walgreens) to buy a card for my nephew's birthday. I come home and notice on the receipt that I've been charged 20% less than the price on the back of the card.

No one said anything to me about any special discounts. 

But then it hits me.

Oh no. 

And the worst part is I'm not even asked anymore. 

It's just assumed.