undecided

Every summer I go up to visit my mom on the Cape.

My sister and M both have places nearby.

I love going, and this year, I would have no time restrictions.

But this year there are other restrictions. Lots of them.

I haven't seen my mom since Thanksgiving. I miss her. That alone is a strong reason for going. 

I also love the Cape.

Its gorgeous beaches.

Its great seafood, especially the reasonably priced lobsters. 

And its very relaxed lifestyle (although I couldn't be much more relaxed than I am now with no makeup, same clothes every day, and unstyled hair).

But to go to the Cape I'd have to get to the Cape. And I won't consider any kind of public transportation. Even if it means (and it does) losing my $115 credit on Jet Blue.

And then when I got there, I wouldn't have the same control over things that I do here.

First of all, I should probably quarantine for two weeks. I doubt I'm infected, but I wouldn't want to risk my mom getting sick if I'm wrong. And how would I quarantine if I'm living with my mom? Staying locked up in a bedroom for two weeks would hardly make the trip worth it.

Restaurants are still closed. And Cape Cod doesn't have a lot of take-out and delivery.

Stores aren't open.

And what about going to the beach with all those people?  And there's no way I'm wearing a mask on the beach. Imagine those tan lines.

On my float I could social distance, but I can't live on my float.







And then I think, not going means staying here. And summer in Manhattan is not very appealing. 

Oh well. It's only May. I guess I'll have to see what life is like in July.