By 9:30pm tonight ...
- I still don't know what outfit they selected for me to wear of the ones I submitted.
- I still haven't signed the contract as terms have not been finalized.
- And I still have no details on any of the specifics, including location.
So I start thinking.
One of my friends is adamantly against it. She thinks there is only downside. "Lyn, no drama and no conflict equal bad television. I can't imagine you'll be portrayed favorably."
Another friend thinks that doing it is weird.
A third says, "Are you ready for any negative posts that could be written? People not liking you for whatever reason?"
And a fourth adds, "This year I want to say yes more than no. And this would definitely be an adventure." But then I ask, "Would you do it?" "No, but I'm more private than you." She is.
When I think of all the people who could see it, would I be putting myself out there too much? Would I look desperate? What if I don't like the final product? And I can't even write a single thing about it until the show airs or is announced, and that could be months and months from now. And even then, everything I write would have to be pre-approved.
My head becomes filled with unanswered what-if's.
I send an email before I change my mind. It begins, "I wanted to let you know that I’ve decided to withdraw from the project."
The response is immediate and kind.
So now I won't be on TV.
I am honored to have been selected, and in the process, I met some really great people.
In the end, it was an adventure. Just not quite the adventure I thought it would be.
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