I’ve
been waking from strange and disturbing dreams lately. The other night I had a vivid dream straight
from a horror movie, replete with people having cut out eyes. Last night I was fired again from a job. I tried calling friends but none were available. My dad shows up healthy and wearing a big
diamond earring in one ear. In another,
I’m a student at Cornell and can’t find my way to class. I think I’m stressed.
The
horrific news of the week still plays loudly.
There are the parents who rush to the hospital thinking their daughter’s
friend is injured and their own is hurt, only to get to the hospital to learn
the opposite is true. Then there is the
man from NH who sees his son on TV, being helped by a stranger in a cowboy hat. Later he learns that his son has suffered the
loss of both legs. It is both senseless
and heartbreaking.
I
have no problems by comparison, but still, I worry.
I
keep looking for employment and find nothing. It is frustrating and
frightening. And as a mother, I of
course worry about my son. He hasn’t
found a job yet for the summer, and I question how hard he’s looking. He’s not sure where he’s living next year (Cornell
only guarantees housing through sophomore year) and the semester ends in a few
weeks. I send him a jury duty notice a
few weeks ago and I don’t think he’s called yet to tell the Court he’s a student a
long way from New York City; there are serious penalties for not calling or
showing. And soon finals will be
starting. Do I jump in and help where I can? Do I continue prodding him to look, call,
whatever? Do I let him solve these
problems alone and pay the consequences if he doesn’t?
I
know these issues will eventually be resolved, and in the scheme of life they
are not that big, but still, I worry. And pray for those whose worries are so much bigger than my own.
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