Alexander has claimed the
living room as his bedroom. When my mom
was visiting, he slept there, and then decided he preferred the sofa to his
bed. It is colder in the living room; the air conditioner is there. In the morning, I now find linens and pillows strewn across my
sofa.
Alexander’s clothes come off
his body and land on a chair. It’s not worth the argument to
remind him of how little effort is involved in putting his clothes into the nearby laundry basket. Or closing a drawer
after it has been opened.
I go into the refrigerator
to grab a piece of fruit. I count five
bottles of Poland Spring, all opened, and all partially drunk. Alexander opens a new bottle whenever he is
thirsty, conveniently forgetting the one he opened and didn’t finish the night,
or even hour, before.
Most of my day, when I’m
home, is spent in my bedroom where my computer is. If I venture into the living room when
Alexander is home, he will ask, “How long do you plan on being here?” He finds my presence distracting.
I go into my bathroom and
there are three big towels hanging in one small space, plus a bathing suit or
two. It amazes me how many towels my son
uses at camp, and then again when he comes home. Showering is a challenge, as I don’t want to
re-wet any of the towels that are partially dry. My bathroom is now always a mess.
When Alexander goes out at
night, I find it hard to fall asleep until he is home. I worry about all sorts of bad things
happening. I always feel safer knowing
he is safe. When he is at school and I
don’t know what he’s doing and when he’s out, I don’t worry as much.
My apartment will be neater
when Alexander returns to school next week.
I will have more space. Maybe I'll worry less. And no one
will tell me to go to my room.
But, still I will miss him. I wish he weren't leaving so soon.
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